So here it is the first of the blogs and I am slowly losing my mind. Ten min ago I had a thousand thoughts running through my mind now I am blank. Oh my god maybe the drinking last weekend has affected my state of mind.
Ok so an introduction. I am 26 from Manchester up and a bit shy. And that is the main definition of understatement right there. I find it difficult to even communicate with the people I live with and they are very good friends. So I like cars and cooking. spent a good portion of the weekend cooking for 10 people Christmas dinner all the trimmings and I have to say it was good so much fun even though I was cooking from about twelve mid day till about half eight. But hey fun fun fun. Also driving. I have a habit of driving 400 miles to my place in Scotland for the night. just because it makes me happy to chill out turn up the music and light a Marlboro while driving while obeying the speed limit of course (yea on an autobahn maybe).
I like many that have gone before me have problems and far from looking for answers I am just venting. I said I was shy. Well here it is. I have met someone that I really like. She is smart beautiful and so much fun. I want to tell her but every time I look at her I freeze. I should just ask her out ask her to dinner ask her to the movies. Hell cooks for her. But then I look at her and I can’t even hold a conversation. I will admit most of my shyness comes from my Family problems. Very big family makes being out shon comon place and having an incrediably sucksessfull sister does not help. Dont get me wrong i am so very proud of her.
so that it I aint going to go on any more I think if anyone reads this and I am going to be very surprised if anyone does then I should probably not make their eyes bleed with myself pitying bullshit.
Well in the words of the profit hard harry SO BE IT